I shouldn’t be messing around with Andrew. he’s made it clear he doesn’t like me.

he wont text me back.

he wont look at me, even.

yeah well whatever, he can suck it.

theoretically speaking.

look. I just like him okay. since Austin doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore, I thought Andrew would be all into me again.

but no.

I mean I understand I broke up with Andrew, for more reasons then just him moving. like the fact that he wanted to get me a birthday present. a week before my birthday. it was too soon, I would have accepted a kiss. I mean i don’t like people spending money on me.

anyways.

i think i may just give Andrew up. if he wants me, he can get me. but i’m not waiting around.

although… there aren’t any other interesting guys to chase after.

today I was inspired. because I watched the show awkward I made a blog. so hi. blog transforms into diary , right? I think so. time for a subject change.

college people came to my school today. I just can’t believe i’m already seventeen. I can’t wait to get away from this hell. no literally, cant you see the flames?

I can’t focus on college. it may be a year away and I should focus on it but I cant. I can’t stop thinking about Andrew…

we dated. he told me he was moving, and I dumped him. but it never went through and now he doesn’t hardly talk to me. I have no idea why. I mean I broke it off. he wasn’t trying to get rid of me…. or was he?

i’m so questioning.

I just hate not knowing what I need to know. like if I knew I was being annoying to Andrew, I could stop. maybe he likes the attention. or maybe he just doesn’t have time. school, online school and night shifts don’t leave you with any leisure time. but I can’t help but feel like, how do I put it… i’m just bugging the hell out of him.

which i’m not.

I only text him every once in a while.

with no avail I might add.

maybe I should pull my head out of my ass and just talk to him and ask what’s up. that’s respectable, isn’t it?

what the hell, what do I have to lose anyway?